上周翻出一篇用英文写的随笔,是我四年前带着孩子们回上海后的第一个春天写的。光阴荏苒!过几天女儿就二十了,儿子也终于比我高出两公分了!“年年岁岁花相似,岁岁年年人不同”女儿说按我的大小,我正式成为家里最可随身携带的物品。这是多么不可思议的事情!
女儿去了美国后,我们都会偶尔思念我们仨一起在上海的日子。庆幸的是,四年过去,一切安好!而身边这个小子虽然大了几岁,其它一概没变。这也多少让我感到一丝丝时光永恒,岁月静好。
春日周末的清晨
一如每一个周六的早晨,春天的早晨,今日也没有什么不同。叽喳的春鸟送来温暖的晨光,渐渐唤醒我沉睡一宿的意识。我懒懒地睁开眼睛,随意延伸着自己的身体,尽情地吐气、吸气,不由得想,“这是真的,我还活着,又一个美好的清晨。”
这咖啡的苦浓香,世间没有任何事物可以比拟,唯有这咖啡的苦浓香,可以如此瞬间让生活渗透我全身所有的知觉。我端起杯子,不紧不慢地,闻着它,啜饮,微笑着,哼着我心里的歌曲;任由那似乎无形的我浸泡在轻松温暖的空气中,任那满足的感觉爬入我的灵魂,又传回我这原本是物质的身体。
其实,我又度过了艰难的一周。但是现在它已经过去了,我们继续往前推进,我们的项目,和我们的人生。
人生如此美好!是的,美好!那是因为我的宝贝天使们。其中一个还在床上做梦,那另一个,她刚向我挥手再见,带着她天使般的微笑,脸上绽放的少女的甜美,一如春光四射。我那宝贝女儿去参加她的周六足球赛,她的身体似乎卷走了室内空气中一部分珍贵的氧气。女儿啊,我珍爱她每一寸柔美的头发,她留下的每一个秀丽的脚印。我感谢上苍,因我每天醒来,能知道我拥有她。我对她的爱,无法言尽,她无法想象。
我的心此时微笑着。我那天使般的男孩,那个懒懒的孩子,依然还懒在床上。他醒来的那一刻,我知道这房子将会充满活力,或是充满他小小的抱怨,或是他的那些关于人生的意义和追求的各种有意思的问题。那天使般的小子已经开始在很多事情上给我做顾问了。他问:“如果没有时间花钱,那挣钱的意义是什么?”他说:“四十之后,你需要每隔一天锻炼一小时,以保持体重。所以妈妈,如果你想减肥,停止思考,开始行动!”这孩子,真是一个小小的智者!我珍爱他闪闪发光的眼眸,他灵巧的身体的每一个的动作,他每一个发自内心的表情,不管是带着沉默或着言语。我珍爱着他带来的空气中的甜蜜。感谢上苍,因我每天醒来,能知道我拥有他。我对他的爱,无法言尽,他无法想象。
一如每一个周六的早晨,春天的早晨,今日也没有什么不同。是的,我们在上海。今天的空气非常清新,蓝天白云。我们即将出门,淹没在城里的人群中,然后在某一个不知名的咖啡馆里悄悄浮现,我看着书,他做着作业,我们安静地坐在陌生人中间,享受着内心的喜悦。
春光即逝,唯爱永恒。
湘伟
2013年3月16日,上海(英文)
2017年4月15日,上海(中文)
Spring Saturday Morning
Like every Saturday morning, in spring, today is no different. Awaken by the warm light, birds chirping, I stretch my body to the fullest extent, breathing in and out. It's real: I am alive, on another beautiful day!
The smell of coffee, nothing like the smell of coffee, brings life back to my senses. I can take my time, sipping, smelling, smiling and humming. Soaking in relaxed warm air, the feeling of contentment crawls up to my soul and spreads all over my body.
It was a difficult week after all. But it's behind now and we are moving ahead, with my projects, and life.
Life is good, because of my angels, one of them still in bed dreaming, the other one waived bye with a beautiful precious smile, her sweet teen face glowing whenever she smiles. My angel girl went to her Saturday soccer game, taking with her some precious part of the air in this house. I cherish every inch of her hair, every footstep she leaves behind. Thank God, I awaken every day, knowing that I have her. I love her more than she would ever know.
My heart is smiling at this moment. My angel boy, my lazy little boy, is still being lazy. The moment he wakes up, I know the house will be filled with energy, or maybe his little complaints, or maybe his special questions expressing his quest for meaning of things. My angel boy is already my advisor on a lot of things. He asks, “What's the point of making a lot of money if one doesn't have time to spend it?” He says, “After forty, you need to exercise one hour every other day to just maintain your weight. So mom, if you want to lose weight, stop thinking about it, act!” My little boy, he is such a wise guy! I cherish every blink of his sparkling eyes, every move of his sweet body, every expression, verbal or silent… I cherish the sweetness in the air in his presence. Thank God, I awaken every day, knowing that I have him. I love him more than he would ever know.
Like every Saturday morning, in spring, today is no different. Yes, we are in Shanghai. Today's air is extraordinarily clean, blue sky. We are about to go out and submerge in the crowds in town, and resurface in a nice café, with my book and his iPad, among total strangers, feeling happy.
March 16, 2013, Shanghai
Xiangwei