难得出差,路上又读了一遍《老人与海》。一样的路,十年前走过和十年后走过,心境是迥异的;同一本书,十年前去读和现在再读,体会自然也是非常不一样的。
至少以前并没有坚持写读书笔记,而且现在开始学着读英文版了。
老人与海的故事应该有三个主角:意识、身体、海。当然还有一些其他角色:小男孩、小船、小鸟、海藻、星星、云、风......他们让老人并不孤单。
故事围绕着三个主角的关系展开,他们之间既是朋友又是敌人,他们彼此依赖又互相排斥,与之相伴的是坚韧、乐观、信念、希望......
“he thought, I keep them with precision. Only I have no luck any more. But who knows? Maybe today. Every day is a new day. It is better to be lucky. But I would rather be exact. Then when luck comes you are ready.”
“I love you and respect you very much. But I will kill you dead before this day ends.”“I wish I could feed the fish, he thought. He is my brother. But I must kill him and keep strong to do it.”“”
“then etching again and he knew no man was ever alone on the sea.”
“There are three things that are brothers: the fish and my two hands.”
“I wish I was the fish, he thought, with everything he has against only my will and my intelligence.”
“He was comfortable but suffering, although he did not admit the suffering at all.”(距离南马还有三个月了)
“Each time was a new time and he never thought about the past when he was doing it.”
“But his left hand had always been a traitor and would not do what he called on it to do and he did not trust it.”
“How many people will he feed, he thought. But are they worthy to eat him? No, of course not. There is no one worthy of eating him from the manner of his behaviour and his great dignity.”
“It is enough to live on the sea and kell our true brothers.”(想起了狼图腾)
“It is half a day and a night and now another day and you have not slept. You must devise a way so that you sleep a little if he is quiet and steady. If you do not sleep you might become unclear in the head.”
“I must hold his pain where it is, he thought. Mine does not matter. I can control mine. But his pain could drive him mad.”
“Come on and kill me. I do not care who kills who.”
“You must keep your head clear. Keep your head clear and know how to suffer like a man. Or a fish, he thought.”
相比于“得到”,“失去”更让人痛苦。无论“得到”的过程多么千辛万苦,前方总有一个叫做“希望”的灯塔。然而“失去”之路是面对着无边的黑暗和无底的深渊,心、境都是不停的down...down...down....老人是以什么样的行动面对注定的失败?
“It was too good to last...”
“Now is no time to think of what you do not have. Think of what you can do with what thers is.”
“But man is not made for defeat. A man can be destroyed but not defeated.”
“The wind is our friend, anyway, he thought. Then he added, sometimes. And the great sea with our friends and our enemies.”
佛说得失随缘,让人心向往之。而这故事里的老人,教我们行必能至。