It's been so long before the feeling came to me again. I'v lost the ability to sort my days, during which i indulged myself to the mess, to my work and your work, getting myself stuck in the middle of faint with nothing can be done to liberate my lovely days. Chen puts that the goal for life is to pursue happiness and share with ones you meet. While the tedious uneasy days are never done, one can hardly rid themselves of blank and empty.
For more than three years, i get myself prepare for the coming years after years. It's never an easy job to get high, as one does in faint years. You know nothing about the world, for you want nothing and offer nothing. You neither give it a shot nor give yourself a break. You neither reject what you got nor insist what you want, just waiting what will happen happens, and leaving what was left right there. Ignoring the ignorance is a crime that will paralyze the spirits and the being.
midnight fell again
