You must know how the saying goes - a boy will always be a boy, or old habits hardly change. That's the one talking about my situations here.
I need to live a very wholesome life, going to bed and getting up on time, taking my ass off the chair as many times as I can and stretch once in a while in order to keep my spirit and my body up because I still got a mouth on my neck. I mean literally a mouth on my neck. For those who just clicked their way inside my article for the first time. I got a minor surgery about a week ago on my neck, cutting my boil open and executing it.
But now, in the very small hours of a day, 00:18, I'm still sitting arrow straight in front of the computer with an empty coffee cup and a book, facing down to the desk, waiting for me to read it after I finish this paragraph of my article, next to me. I am tired, but, in no way, I want to crawl onto my bed and shut my eyes, waiting for the new dawning to show up in my face in a couple of hours. I don't really know why, I just simply don't want to do so.
Sometime, I'd argue with myself over the value of writing certain number of words down every day. I strongly uphold the ideal that nothing would be internalized into your own body and soul unless you can spit it out in your own words. But all of witty and worthy words and sentences all come up under one condition that is you have the witty and worth-talking things in your mind, otherwise, what you say would be nothing but a pile of meaningless information, or, even worse, they wouldn't be counted as information at all. Maybe, that's why I don't want to go to bed and still want to do some reading after I finish this. I'm afraid that some day I'd become a person I hate, a person who can talk nothing but all the trivial and minutiae odds and ends in its life and can make nothing different in its or other's life. That would be way too cruel to me. I can stand it in no way. So, I must seize every chance I have to become a better person, more erudite, more inspiring, more witty, more philanthropic, more humane, more trustworthy, more capable of achieving my own dream, though I still have no clue what that would be.
I gotta go back to my reading. I think I will be too excited to fall into sleep later because I am just three letters away from ending this book (it's organized alphabetically and also a book pertaining to the dictionary and words). And I just got it three days ago.
I just appreciate all the nights I have spent and will spend with those edifying books and inspiring girls.
