in the past,I always try hard to be outstanding.i try so hard and always feel frustrated.no achievement can I get from job.cause I thought that was my father hope me to be.and I would not like to disappoint him.so every time when I look for a job I always found some look like elegant and will bring a bright future and could make some money.so I lost when every time I took a job like that.i can feel any interest and achievement in it.and then I quit my job and another one,it means something wonderful than the last job.and then circles around. I hate that so much,and I did this again and it just because I didn't dare to challenge my dad,the big dad that I afraid so much when I was a child . And that scene last for so long.when things comes to the bottom,it turns,I just prepare to be in the achievement jail again I tell my true thoughts,and you guess what, I get the approval. I can done what is i really want,i can try everything i interest.you can't believe it ha ，so do I.in that moment,all the pains disappear from my body, I feel so free and so warm.life becomes alive to me now.