My friend made a sort of rude judgement on me, saying: You don't have many hobbits, did you realize that? Being influenced by the article I just finished, I answered almost unconsciously that my hobbit is reading book which of course is not a hobbit appreciated by many people. What was more unexpected than his judgment was the fact that I couldn't just let it go. There has been a voice in my head since I came back from the meeting. I of course have hobbits! I have tons of hobbits! Do you think only playing the instruments or singing some ridiculous songs are reasonable hobbits? Ok, I got a little overreacted. What I was trying to say is that, I am always the girl with overwhelming affection and curiousness toward my life and the world. If you want me to draw a perfect circle to define which parts of my life could be counted as hobbits, drawing is just the answer to this stupid but worthy question.
Not every kid loves drawing, but everyone has the memory of being half-forced to draw a tree, a house or a bird. After careful consideration about the reason, I believe it is definitely not because we have so many teachers who get talents in drawing and can't help imparting the beauty of art. It is just because drawing is one of the most accessible activities which can distract those crazy kids from chasing each others around the classroom.
I was the best drawer in my class. I might not be the most talented, but as a kid with high self-esteem and self-expectation, I never allowed myself to fall behind with anything related to grading. Fortunately, drawing is one of the activities I could really enjoy. Various ideas just jumped out of my mind and effortlessly came into truth on my paper. Oh, what a lovely moment it was. I always heard from my peers the words like, I want to paint my sky like what you did or I would like draw a skirt like your girl's. What's more, I didn't quite care about their imitation, because I knew I had more things to offer than what they have seen. My creativity gave me proud, my proud painted my master pieces.
The moment that I began to lower the priority of drawing, I suddenly realized just now, was when I was applying for junior high school. The teacher of my ideal junior high school only value awards in the field of math, science or English. He did not think my countless drawing awards could suggest the ability of a student or they were able to promise them a smart student with promising future. I don't blame the teacher since even myself surrendered to that shit too. My life gradually shifted away from drawing since that point, though I continued learning drawing for another two years.
You might feel confused. Let me put it in this way. After realizing drawing was not able to bring me success in the real world, my passion faded before I noticed this. In the following two years, I still made lots of efforts in learning drawing, even in a more serious way. I learned it with many other students who set art as their future career. I walked a long way to the drawing studio every week and spent lots of money on the painting. Before I wrote this article, I thought the reason why I failed to keep those high level skills was that I didn't have gifts. Now I am thinking forgetting the nature of drawing contributed to the lost of the skills.
For a long time, the belief that I have no gifts in drawing hold me back from picking up the painting again. Besides, I have had so many more important things to chase: a good school, an awesome boy, hit news happens everyday in the world. It seemed drawing would not bring anything like those to me. Being discouraged from the fear of the bad results, the laziness of practicing and the stupid excuses made up my plain achievement in the field.
Is it still possible to find my curiosity for leading and energy for doing? God knows the answer, but I am trying. Some wise guy said it is more fair to judge a person's achievement by their creativity rather than what they are wearing or watching. Creativity does not necessary mean some big projects. In fact, I believe drawing allow us the chances to form a model of thinking in creativity, no matter what the magnitude of the drawing. Drawing also makes the perfect way to positively observe and reflect our life rather than only passively absorb information.
The following is sketched yesterday. I saw an lady crossing the arrest in the morning. Her a little oversized body and the thin high heel structured a strong visual effect. Although it was not a highly controlled piece still I am happy about the way my idea turned out.
Practicing and enjoyment make nothing impossible. Give our live a little color, then the beauty could overwhelm the world.
