If you don't want to talk, then don't. Just stay quiet and that's fine. Just do what needs to be done and that's good enough. I feel so tired.
Yesterday I went through that incident and it made me realize instantly that if a job threatens my life or my future career, I should definitely give it up. You didn't come into this world easily, why ruin your future because of a trivial matter?
There's no need to bear such heavy consequences for things that can't be changed. It's okay. Just take it slow and you'll know what you need most. Don't over-identify with others' feelings. Don't worry about things that can't be changed. Those are not things you should be concerned about because they are not your responsibility. Relax, everything will be fine.