I don't have it yet, but i really want to have one.

I don't believe in God, or any other divine's exist. I don't believe that we are doomed for any meaning or purpose. but what i do believe is that we all need some purposes in life, which push up, inspire us, and entertain us, and most importantly, appease us.

i feel very anxious about my life, and i ask myself a low why i feel bored and why the people around me use different methods to avoid being bored. They spent hours and even days watching soup opera, or play video games, or reads novel, or find jokes on the internet, or just refresh their QQ zone or weibo all the time. why? why they are trapped by such things even they feel pain and feel that something is not right.

I am still searching for it. i'll save myself from all these boredom.