Recently I read an article accidental that unfolds my frustrated state about relationship and morality.
Since I have broken the active continuous contact, the thought holding in my mind is that I was always afraid of being disliked by her to who I kept myself comparing simply because a if my abilities fail to match with her, a sense of unworthy render me that I am incapable of developing a connection with her, which is suppressed hypothesis leading to lose what is my core value and decrease the level of self-esteem.
What's more, it is also incompatible with Separation to Subject which is absolute solution of this state.
In fact, instead of paying much more attention to what she thinks of me and whether she likes me not,it is what I want to do that matters. When I really care about her, when I am really fond of her, just actively contact with her, without pondering uncertain consequences.
As I wrote before literally, with peace and no regrets , facing the possibility of no rewards , I still choose to do what I am into and love who I am into.
