2017-11-20
自初中开始一直有记日记的习惯，这个习惯一直到大一下学期左右逐渐被我丢弃。现在想想，人渐渐长大，变老，很多好的不好的回忆都随着时间消逝，回想起来仿佛过往都是空白。虽然更偏爱用笔记录，但是在互联网时代，用电脑记录保存在云端还是比记录在本上更加实在，至少它不会随着搬家而丢失，随着时间流逝而发旧。
工作总结：
上午开小会，找美术做图的素材。电脑不知为何非常卡顿，恍惚就到了午饭时间。午休期间在微博上逛了几分钟后打开了YT看ps关于新手的视频，稍后再用ps回顾一下抠图的内容。
下午用ps试做了一下矩形框然后将图片插入，以及看了一个关于蒙版的帖，明天还要继续看完并实践。此外，看了一篇关于如何训练新手的素描能力。
这一天并无太大收货，上班闲暇时也不太敢专心学习ps。
明日目标：
熟悉蒙版的所有用途。
回家的公交上看了杨绛的《我们仨》，看到杨绛女士经历了女儿阿圆和钟书先生的先后里去，心里也觉得悲伤难过，自己在慢慢老去，却要经历至亲的离世。古驿道的那艘船是真的船还是杨绛女士想象中的呢？第三部前部分写的是杨绛女士和钱钟书先生在英国留学的日子，听起来简单平淡却也幸福。其实我内心里也渴望过很多这种时候，在国外的大学，不受太多生活压力，能以学习及提升自己为乐。身边有先生陪伴。
翻开朋友圈，看到又一个高中同学Y结婚了，穿着秀禾服的她笑的很甜，婚房温馨漂亮，让我突然很羡慕，羡慕好看的新房，羡慕美美的新娘。前段时间她和她先生去了毛里求斯旅游，看出来都是过的很幸福。近日，亦了解到另外一个高中同学P和老公去了英国，她先生在英国伦敦政治经济学院读研，毕业后留在英国工作，今年终于拿到Morgan Stanley的offer和工作签证，我深深的震惊了，感叹牛人太多的同事也感叹我们之间的差距。很多时候当你在自己的小世界里潇洒自在或者说沉溺于其中止步不前时，别人已经往前跨了很多步。心里因为这件事情感慨了很久，恨自己的懒惰，拖延与不思进取。知足常乐是好事，但是不能拿这个当作安慰自己的借口。我不羡慕大富大贵之人，也不羡慕有权有势之人，我佩服这种将自己的生活过成自己想要的样子的人。所以说，遇到什么样的人对一个人的一生影响很大，而你自己的生活态度也决定了你会过什么样的生活。
我并不讨厌自己现在的生活状态，我很感激遇到了我的先生，我们在一起也很幸福。虽然为钱烦恼，为工作烦恼，但是我并没有亏待自己什么。只是骨子里好强的我，在高中之后，慢慢的变得接受平庸，接受现状。心里渴望很多，也梦想很多，也想学很多，却一直没有开始。
什么时候开始努力都不迟，你可以不和已经在你前面很多步的人比，你可以和身边许多还未开始的人比，至少你已经觉醒了，你已经先于他们开始追求你心里未完的梦了。
那日和英国的高中同学聊完后，她给我发了这个，记录于此，鼓励你我。
Do you think you are going No Where in Life?
STOP!
Take a deep breathe
THINK!
New York is three hours ahead of California, but that does not make California slow
Cameroon is six hours ahead of New York but it does not make New York slow.
Someone graduated from college at 22 but waited five years before securing a job.
Someone became a CEO at 25 but died at 50.
Someone became a CEO at 50 but lived to 90 years.
Someone is still single,
While another is married with children
Absolutely, everyone in this world works based on their own time zone.
People around you might seem to be ahead of you.
That’s total fine. Some are behind you.
Everyone is running their own race in their own time zone.
Don’t envy or mock them.
They are in their own time zone and you are in yours.
Life is about waiting for the right moment to react.
So RELAX.
You’re not late
You’re not early
You’re very much on time, and in your time zone.
Everyone have a different exams paper meaning different questions.
Everyone have a different assignment meaning different purpose in life.
So focus on your own exam paper, your assignment and purpose.
Don’t copy and paste or steal answer else you will fail big time.
Your dreams and visions are all valid.Just take your time and do the best you can.
Be like the hummingbird.Even when mighty lions and tigers underestimated him,he continued to do what he could ,where he was ,just as he was,with the little he had.
You're ok just the way you are.The little work you are doing today might seem insignificant but I bet someday you will see the big picture.
You're Not late ! You're Not early.
