早上回家睡觉，一觉睡到晚上的，明明看到了早上的太阳和下午的夕阳，但是清醒时天已经黑了。不想出门，休息天只想睡觉，到了晚上该睡不着了。真的不喜欢晚班，今天想好了，就算把自己layoff掉也不想上晚班了，白天昏沉晚上昏沉，眼睛痛，工作效率也不理想。
但是至少近期还有一个晚班要上，大家以为的熬夜是年轻的象征， 但是我从来就不喜欢，即使在我更年轻的时候。来到这里我想成为不一样的自己，所以接受晚班也是我的一个尝试，但是事实证明不是所有的尝试都可以成功，但是它也不全是坏事，告诉我哪t些是我排斥的，就像也试着去和navy相处过，但是觉得真的不行，he's really sweat, but i broke his heart, even i didn't mean to, and the worst part is i don't regreat it. maybe it's the best for both of us.
the loneliess i'm having now is my path that can not avoid, but when you dorp to the bottom, you have nowhere to go but go up, right? yeah. and i know what really should i do tonight, clearly i don't want to stay up all night and think and doing nothing really. maybe i should read a book, a book night, just myself.
