This morning I got my National Test grates in washroom, it is just one point below the passing line, i know it's not a joke, it's me myself who failed the exam, and i couldn't bear the time that's been gone, the result is ridiculous, I called L Q to tell her the result and what i've been through, why I couldn't call her earlier and tell her everything. Because I cannot talk to her until sth had been achieved. she said I should've called her earlier and there was a better school for me, or i could be her student next year, she is a professor now, and i know she deserves that she's been working so hard, professor achievement makes her really happy.
But what can i do, it troubles me that without painful results I cannot push myself harder. Why!is it adaption that made me forget about the things i got to do?the path i should go?lack of tense to live? I really learned a lesson through this test, and i wanna say more, i fear my age, it soon will be 28.
