This is not a good Monday

My head is dazing, my fish is dying 

Last night my mom is yeeling like the dream is haunting her 

My stomach is trying to digest me from the inside out 

It is pain it is dizzy

I don't know what's wrong

It looks not right 

It seems not right 

And I'm not right 

Clod avocado sauce, green toast, blue water, flush the dead body

Web broken, stock market broken or am I also broken?

Why everthing not match my mind or I ask too much?

I'm lucky to have this crowd place even not belong to me, even one bed, one self place

They all look nice and good

"What a new day!"

What a shitty day!

Who say tommorrow is another day? what does he expect?

Sunshine, flower, enegry, passion

Fuck this off 

It is just a not good Monday 

Everything won't get better, don't lie to yourseleve

Fate is a bitch, mocking at your hardwork, teasing you struggling, waiting one point you drown

I love you, that is my last word. You are the best, even you doubt always.

Everything won't get better but you will

You can do it, no matter what day it is.

2021-12-06, revised 2021-12-09