Laceration means to have a deep cut or tear on the skin. The self-laceration I refer to is like a deep cut or tear but deeper than our skin — it’s how we hurt ourselves with the things that we say and do. It’s the things that we put off, the things that push us further away from ourselves, the things that make us align with being mischievous, temperamental, cynical or maybe even depressive, and not ourselves.
It’s like getting excessively drunk every so often and causing harm to ourselves and the people around us. It’s committing to that toxic relationship. It’s staying in a job we hate. It’s the anxiety we find ourselves in as we drown in overthinking. It’s the self-pity we dwell in by feeling sorry for ourselves all the time. It’s the low self-esteem. The easy way outs. The short-term pleasures. The denial. It’s anything that we consistently do that brings harm to ourselves.