今天有一门课可我决定不去了，为什么呢因为老子星期一开始就没去何必今天才一门课，不过我平时几乎都要去上课的无论有没有存在感，有没有听懂课我还一直坚持去上课的，不过这星期被诅咒了一样就是不想去上课，心里有什么东西吃着我，想把它扔出去，不知道理由是什么坐立不安，情绪超低落。其实情绪好情况也有，不过那天晚上特别失望，因为不知这么的特别开心，想跳舞可家里有爸，外面跳可不行（没钱去酒吧，有钱早就去了），想聊天，想逗人，可从早到晚除了我家里的猫没人跟我聊。所以情绪好对我来说那天会是失望的一天。回到现在今天跟我爸说上课然后在外面找个安静的角落。。。。。。。发呆吧估计。
其实写日记这东西我一直以来都是女孩干的事，而且从来没写过心里话，跟别提说过了。我觉得这样写对我的中文也有一定的帮助而且还减少压力（我是这么想的），想把我的内心世界表达出来，发泄的一种吧，因为我非常喜欢听姆爷的歌，某种程度来说我们俩很都恨这世界，虽然我的条件好很多但我就很这世界，听他歌爽的不行，歌词感觉简直替我说的话一样，可惜我的母语不是英文但基础还是有的，他这种发泄方式太有效率了，下面我跟大家介绍我觉得跟我内心最相似的一首姆爷的歌Legacy
[Intro]
Tell me where to go, tell me what to do
告诉我该怎么办，告诉我该怎么做
I'll be right there for you
我一直在等你指引我
Tell me what to say, don't matter if it'strue
告诉我该说什么，无论真假对错
I'll say it all for you
我都会为你而说
[Verse 1: Eminem]
I used to be the type of kid that, wouldalways think the sky isfalling
我曾经是一个惶惶不可终日的孩子
Why am I so differently wired? Am I amartian?
为何我的大脑如此奇怪得亢奋，难道我是个火星人？
What kind of twisted experiment am Iinvolved in
我究竟处于什么变态的实验中？
Cuz I don't belong in this world
我不属于这个世界吧！
That's why I'm scoffing at authority,defying (defiant?) often
这就是为何我总是嘲讽并蔑视当局者
Flying off cuz they handling my mom, no dad
我没有父亲，我离家而去因为我看到他们在和我母亲发生关系
So I'm non-compliant at home, at school I'mjust shy andawkward
在家里我很叛逆，但在学校我很胆怯尴尬不会交际
And no I don't need no goddamn psychologist
我不需要什么心理医生
Tryna diagnose why I have all theseunderlying problems
来诊断为何我有这些潜在的问题
Thinking he can tryna solve them
他自以为能解决这些问题？
I'm outside chalking up drawings on thesidewalk
在外面时，我走在路边在墙上信手涂鸦
And in the front drive talking to myself
在驾驶座上自言自语
Either that or inside hiding off in thecorner somewhere quiet
又或者是在家的时候把自己隔绝在某个寂静的角落
Trying not to be noticed cause I'm cryingand sobbing
试图不被他人注意，因为我在抽泣
I had a bad day at school so I ain'ttalking
因为今天我在学校过的真操蛋，我现在一点也不想说话
Some cocksucker shoved me into a fuckinglocker because he said thatI eyeballed him
有个傻逼就因为我盯着他看，他就把我塞进一个柜子里
[Bridge]
And if you fall, I’ll get you there
如果你跌倒失败，我会在那里守护你
I'll be your savior from all the wars thatare fought inside yourworld
我会把你从你内心的挣扎中全部拯救出来
Please have faith in my words
请相信我
Cause this is my legacy, legacy
因为这是我为你（们）留下的遗产
This is my legacy, legacy
这是我的遗产
There's no guarantee, it's not up to me,you can only see
我不能保证，也不能由我决定，你只能看到
This is my legacy, legacy
这是我的遗产
[Verse 2: Eminem]
I used to be the type of kid that, wouldalways think the sky isfalling
我曾经是一个惶惶不可终日的孩子
Why am I so differently wired in my noggin?
为什么我的大脑如此不同他人得神经过敏？
'Cuz sporadic as my thoughts come, it'smind boggling
我的脑中总是零星地闪过一丝灵感，那种感觉难以置信
'Cuz I obsess on everything in my mind
我对脑中的所有的事物都很着迷
it's small shit bothers me
平时也只有些小事烦恼着我
but now my father, he said Sayonara, thensplit
可现在我的父亲说了句再见就离开了我们
But I don't give a shit I'm fine as long as
但我TM一点都不在意
There's batteries in my Walkman nothing isthe matter with me
只要我随声听里的电池还有电，我就什么都不在意
Shit look at the bright side at least Iain't walking
起码往TM好的方面看看吧，我有自行车，不用走路
I bike ride through the neighborhood of myapartment
我骑着车经过邻居家
Complex on a ten speed which I've acquiredparts that I
Found in the garbage, a frame and put tireson it
其实也就是一辆只能开十码的组装车，我从垃圾堆里翻出来部件，找了个框架把轮胎装上去就完了
Headphones on straight ahead and kids tryto start shit
我带着耳机自顾自地骑着，而看见我的孩子又要开始嘲笑我
But if this all there is for me life offers
如果这是生活能赐予我的全部
Why bother even tryna put up a fight, it'snonsense
我为何还要去挑起和别人毫无意义的争斗？
But I think a lightbulb just lit up in myconscience
但我发现脑海中出现了一盏明灯
What about those rhymes I've been jottin'
我想起了那些随手记下的词句
They are kinda givin’ me confidence
他们多少可以给我点自信
Instead of tryna escape through my comics,
与其努力挣脱我这喜剧般的人生
Why don't I just blast a little somethinglike Onyx
为何不像Onyx组合一样唱点什么？
To put me in the mood to wanna fight andwrite songs that
点燃我的情绪，让我想要抵抗
Say what I wanna say to the kid that saidthat I eyeballed him
把我想要对那些“说我打量他们的人”说的话，全部写在歌里
Grab hold of my balls like that's right,fight's on bitch
我要挺直胸膛表现的无比凶悍：“没错，傻逼，老子就要跟你斗！”
Who would've knew from the moment I turnedthe mic on
谁会想到从我拿起麦克风的那一刻起我会变成一个偶像
I could be iconic, and my conquest is
word to Phife Dawg from a Tribe CalledQuest
而我的战利品就是能和A Tribe Called Quest成员Phife Dawg平起平坐
[Bridge]
[Verse 3: Eminem]
I used to be the type of kid that, wouldalways think the sky isfalling
我曾经是一个惶惶不可终日的孩子
Now I think the fact that I'm differentlywired's awesome
但现在看来，我如此奇怪的亢奋，对我来说简直太棒了
Cause if I wasn't I wouldn't be able towork
因为倘若我不是那样怪异，我就无法写出像这样绝妙的词句
Words like this and connect lines likecrosswords
我就无法像字谜一样连行串句
And use my enemy's words as strength
我就无法把敌人的话语化作自己的力量
To try and draw from, and get inspired offem
从他们的话中汲取灵感
Cause all my life I was told and taught Iam not shit
By you wack fucking giant sacks of lyingdog shit
我活到现在，你们这些傻逼狗蛋一直在看不起我，但相反这让我明白了我并不是垃圾
Now you shut up bitch I am talking
现在傻逼们你们可以闭嘴了，轮到我说话了
Thought I was full of horseshit and now
你们不是看不起我么？
You fucking worship the ground in which Iam walking
现在你们都在跪舔我脚下的地！
Me against the world so what? I'm BrianDawkins
全世界与我为敌又如何？我就像Brian Dawkins一样强大
Versus the whole 0 and 16 Lions offense
一个人足以独自面对0胜16负的雄狮队的脆弱防线（形容对手太对）
So bring on the Giants Falcons and MiamiDolphins
让巨人队、亚特兰大老鹰队还有迈阿密海豚队一起上好了！
It's the body bag game bitch I'm supplyingcoffins
这几乎是一场你死我活的肉搏战，但我为你们准备好了棺材！
（body bag game：A particular game, in any sport, in which there is aunusually largeamount of injuries or physical play. It is derivedfrom a Monday Night Footballgame between the Philadelphia Eaglesand the Washington Redskins in which morethan 10 Redskin playerswere injured by Eagle players.）
Cause you dicks, butt kiss, a bunch ofBrian Baldingers
因为你们这些弱鸡，就是一帮只会放屁的评论员
You gon die a ball licker I've beendiabolical
你的下场就是作为一个傻逼死去
With this dialogue since 99 Rawkus
但自从99年在Rawkus的合集专辑上露脸，我便已掌握恶魔之力
（转：Eminem在Rawkus唱片公司的合集Soundbombing Volume 2和Missy "Misdemeanor"Elliott的专辑Da Real World频频亮相）
You don't respect the legacy I leave behindy'all can
你们若是不尊重我留下的遗产，你们就去舔吊吧！
Suck a dick The day you beat me pigs'll flyout my ass
and a flying saucer full of Italian sausage
要是有一天你能打败我，我的菊花能飞出猪来，还能飞出一个装满意大利香肠的飞碟！
The most high exalting and I ain't halting
而最让我激动的时刻到来时我不会犹豫
Till I die of exhaustion inhale my exhaustfumes
到我累死的那一天，傻吊快吸入我燃烧后的烟！
The best part about me is I am not you
老子最棒的地方，就是老子没有成为你
I am me I'm a fire marshall and this is my
老子就是老子，老子就是吊炸天的Marshall Mathers
[Hook]
