Dear Leo,
Everything sucks. Recently, many upsetting things have happened. Perhaps it's because of getting older. In the past, the troubles might have been due to interpersonal relationships, but now, the distress is more often caused by physical ailments.
Of course, it's not just me; even my friends have had surgery in the hospital. Several of my colleagues' elderly family members have also passed away. I understand it's because I'm getting older, my friends are ageing, and our parents are getting older. I may face my parents' health, unemployment, and financial problems soon.
I've been avoiding this question: What's the meaning of living so hard? Don't we all have to experience birth, ageing, sickness, and death? From birth to death, it seems like we're making choices, but in reality, we cannot choose a single thing.
I'm fed up with this feeling of being pushed around by life. But I'm powerless to resist. I try to find things that bring happiness, but soon I feel bored. It's as if there's a Dementor by my side, constantly sucking away my joy.
