Honestly, as an engineering graduate,writing an English article makes me really awkward, for my vacabulary pretty much sucks. Otherwise, English is a very fascinating language to me, I'm so into its pronunciation.
When I decided to put down TALK TO MYSELF, I wasn't thinking about how to use beautiful words to make it more attractive or native. This is the very beginning of my English writing,I’d love to tell something that my heart wants to tell in a raw and upright way right at this moment.
I've been doubting it where is the way to go for a few months, since I quitted,I don’t want to get back to any banking position, to those stressful and nervous days at all. I was so sick of the tests every year which made me tense and upset, what broke my heart most was I did bad for part of them. Maybe I'd go for a financial campany or do some accounting job based on my working experience.
Once upon a time Catherine told me she never thought being a bank teller was that good,for she didn't want to live with such money pressure all day long.
I have growing faith in God, I know He will make my way by His almighty hands and kind providence, He has a different plan than I can ever imagine. I know everything is completely under His control. So I'm not wearing a worried look like others when they are out of work, even though I’m not so outstanding and I barely have a clue what's gonna happen next.
Those days were gone,no matter how many times we think about them,we can’t get a time machine to get back there. What I can do is focus on getting
a little stronger, and make today and tomorrow count.
Take no time to regret. I’d push myself a little bit more, go to bed earlier and get up earlier, so that I can read more as well as exercise more.
Chinese New Year is very near the corner,I’m going to get back to my hometown and spend the coming days with my family. Seems like it’s not like the festival we celebrated when we were quite young, I don’t expect to get red pockets or taste yummy snacks.
A lot of questions concerned with marriage and work will be thrown to me, probably I will tell people everything is going pretty well, then leave them all alone.
I plan to read in my own room when I can schedule it. I will return home along with a book and a notebook. Good books do good to us. Reading encourages and improves me a lot, it helps establish my character and thinking pattern,the benefits of reading are definitely countless as the sand on the beach.
To my surprise, I’ve been fond of Chinese ancient poems and history since last year, they enhanced my understanding towards life and lifted my spirit.
Actually Theology is also my favorite subject, this year I aim to have a deeper sight into it, the to read list for me includes Holy Bible and some theology books.
Hereby, I'm going to read more English books, I wish I can improve my speaking, listening and writing,I wish I can be someone better who walks down the street and holds her head high.
What pot matches with what cover, so I've gotta be better to meet someone better. LOL .
