Dear diary,
Long time no see.
What a ridiculous thing, I don’t know from what time, I almost forgot I was major in English education. I could have spoken English fluently and written some paper for English course. I don’t know if I can make use of what I 've learnt before. I even frogot the grammar and lots of words. What a pity! It’s a shame to me, isn’t it?
But I still want to express something by English sometimes. Just to remind me that I have been an English majored student. Even though what I am writing is just making some words together and can’t be called as anarticle, I still want to try.
In fact, I usually write some English essay when I don’t feel well. Maybe I formed this habit when I was in my college. To be honest, I feel so vast and hazy recently . Just like someone suddenly breaks my belief that I turst for many years. And I have to make a big decision that is difficult to me. But I know I must do.
Everyone has to do plenty of decisions in his whole life, some small, some big, some insignificant, some influenced deeply...
When we come to this world, we begin to choose every thing and every people for us except our parents. And nobody knows what we choose is right or wrong. But the one thing is positive that there’s no chance to regret what we did before. No matter what we chose and what we did, the only thing we can do is to go on and finish it.
I am a stubborn girl. When I make the decision, almost nobody can change my mind and I will never regret. Cause, I am an adult and can be responsible for myself.
As we all know, people get used to live in their “cozy circles ”. And so do I. In the cozy circles, there are people you are familiar, the work you are skilled in, the environment you feel relaxed. All in all, everything seems to be terrific. But why do some people still take a step out of this, even maybe it’s dangerous outside,even they will lose everything they have got already , even they will seek what they want for a long time, even the result isn’t be certainly all like they want, I ask myself again and again.
After that, I realize that scentence is right— The world is so big that I want to have a look. It’s a so wonderful reason. Do you remember that experiment — the Boiling Frog? At first, the frog exactly feeled well. But so what? Finally, it became a delicious food in others'dishes. Right?
If I never take this step, I will never know what the outside world is like;If I never take this step, I will never know what my ability is; If I never take this step, I will never know how stressed I can suffer;If I never take this step, I will know how much potential I can develop...
Someone tells me, it’s so dangerous outside, but only I experience this myself, I can find the way to protect myself and the one I love. Someone tells me, the outside isn’t that wonderful like you think, yeah, I know, maybe there are so many difficulties and troubles waiting for me, but I still have to try.Ah, don't you understand the reason of be unexpected rescued from a desperate situation?
I wanna to be the brave girl. Even nobody appreciates me, I do; even nobody trusts tomorrow is another day, I do; even nobody supports me, I do.
Shakespeare says " All the world's a stage.And all men and women merely players; They have their exits and their entrances."
Now it’s my time to entrance the next stage.
Good luck, I trust I can.
