hay, yue. are you still okay with me? I am so sensitive these days, feeling so terrible.
it's too easy to be influenced by others. I feel isolated...and it's horrible.
I'm sorry to convey this kind of bad feeling to you. but I really don't know who I should talk to.
these days that feeling came back again. the self-doubt feeling.
you know, if I do certain that someone Is my friend, I will have a special feeling to that one, I'll be concerned, and I want to get the attention from that one. So it's too bad when a person you conceived as a friend treat you bad. (maybe not so bad )I'll never talk to them because I don't know how to say it and I'm afraid that them will say "you think too much", I'm really scared to hear those words.
Then I'll drown into the feeling of should I continue to think them as friends? or have them really treated me as a friend?
Do you think that's strange or if you feel pressured as a friend of mine. please let me know.
postscript: I know that I should not think too much and I should talk some more meaningful things with you, and I should be more tolerant and be broad-minded, but I just couldn't resist it. please leave me a note when you have time.

                             yours "thinking too much" girl