Losing was not in the script. Although, I'm not sure about the results.

That moment, I feel tired, and I wanted to quit and finish my life.

It's like, be throwed into the sea again.

Numerous failures: Tsinghua, Uchicago, Sk. Funny. 

Confidence is far away, and humble draw my soul in sorrow

I don't believe fate anymore.

Rework.