Does everyboday still remember how is your feeling when you given the first speech on the stage. excited, nervous, fears?
I can still remember the feeling with my first speech at Wechat club.
before that, I just thought it would not be an issue for me as I had the experience of speaking in company's meeting.
BUT when I standing here ,in front of diffrent audience, I suddenly became non-confident.
my minds went blank, my eyes looked at sky, my body shaked very much, no body language, no movement, just like a straight tree stand here, how awkward am I !
for a long time, I felt frustrated and even ashamed of myself.
that is my truly feeling with first speech, when the reality has great different from the expectation,I felt lost and I spent a lot of time to think about why and how , until I found an article called "Welcome to Holland"
The article tells how a bad thing became a good thing.
The hero, he plans an amazing trip to Italy, so he plans a great route, and even learn a few words of Italian. Everything is going well, after few months waitting, the day finally arrived, he started his new journey, a few hours later, the airplan landed, The pilot comes up and say to him " welcome to Holland". " Holland? why Holland? you're suprised ," I'm going to Italy!", but the reality is, something happened, the airplane have to stop in Holland, he has to get off the plane, he has to think about, since the fate arrange the miracle, then how he would spend the time here, so he re-buy a new guidebook and learn a new language, after he have been staying here for a while, he started to get along with new place then HE looked around, Holland has windmills, Holland has tulips, Holland looks good too, he still can enjoy happy time in Holland.
Be a good speaker is the "Italy" I want to go. but right now I landed in 'Holland",
I shall follow hero, to see Holland, to see windwills ， to see tulips, to see what will happen next. beause the key to make our life be good is ourselves who never give up.
There was 3 months I keep silent when my voice broken because of a throat operation , I just sit under stage just like you all ,to listen, listen all fellow members speech, then I realized the different between good speakers and me.
When my voice back, I restarted a new pathway and restart with level1, here in SoYoung, practice, first time, second time, third time and many times, face my shortcoming directly and fully accpet any comments, improve myself step by step, the process is really slow but also interested..
finally i finished double level2, I found I have alittle changes here, I did have body language, even a little movement ,I got some recognize from others, I felt more confident right now, I found my Holland.
I would like call this is kinds of growth. Growth is the gap between your imagination and reality, when you falled into the gap, we called frustration, when you climb out, we called growth.
We can't control the reality but we can learn how to get along with the reality to see what will happen next. Life is a long long journey ,there was lots of diffculties and obstables, When we can't go to Italy , when we landed in Holland, pls just open your arms and smiled , say to yourself, Welcome to Holland.
