It doesn't matter. Please don't care about the thing. It is not worth you to worry or hurry.
Please treat yourself gently rather than to hurt or affect by the bad things.
I believe you can deal with it carefully. It doesn't matter if you want to cry or what just do it.
I know you feel grievance while it reminds you don't pay more attention to it. As long as you have done everything that you should do just learning to accept the result. Don't pay more attention to think about it.
It's ok. What you have experienced just makes it as a experience to help you to grow up.
