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（余姚久违的太阳终于流浪回来了，想说带棒棒出去逛逛吧，哪里都行，没有目的地。回来后最近有点抑郁的阴霾也一扫而光了，剪完视频想说给棒棒写封信吧，然后就写了，为什么要写中英版的呢，因为之前给棒棒写过不少信，但是双语的还是第一次，查了好一会字典呢；写完说要不录个音吧，然后就录了......）

给棒棒的一封信

亲爱的棒棒，你好哇

Hello,bangbang

我常常跟你说：“棒棒，你要保护好自己，妈妈不能一直陪在你的身边，你会长大，我会老去......”每当听到这样的话，你会变得特别伤感，有一次还哭着跟我说：“妈妈，我不要你离开我！”还有一次带着哭腔问我：“妈妈，你会不会像江口的阿太一样去山上呢？”当然会啊，但是请你相信，即使到了那一天，我也依然爱你！因为没有父母是不爱自己的孩子的！

I always tell you :bangbang,you should protect yourself,mum can’t accompany with you forever,you will grow up,I will be old.Once you held this,you changed sad,cried with me:mum,please don’t leave me!Cried and asked me:mum,you will be died,right?Of course ,I will ,actually everyone will.but believe,even to that day,I always love you !Because no parents don't love their children,believe me!

从拥有你的那一刻起， 我把你当成人生中无比重要的一个课题，随着你慢慢长大，你在我生命中的占比越来越重。我希望可以多一些时间陪陪你，陪你玩耍，陪你哭泣，陪你长大，我希望我可以陪伴你的时间长一点再长一点，我想带你去看春天的繁花似锦，夏天的绿树成荫，秋天的累累果实，冬天的银装素裹，我想带你去你想去的任何地方，我想尽我所能给你想要的一切。

Once I owe you, I thought of you as one of the most important subjects in my life.As you grow up day and day, you will change more important in my life.I hope I can  spend more time with you,accompany with you to play,to cry,to grow up.I wish I can accompany with you longer and longer.I want to take you to see the beautiful flowers in spring;To see the summer trees;To see the fruits of autumn;To see the snow in winter;I want to take you wherever you want to go.I want to give you everything you want.

我甚至想，等你读大学了，我就去你读大学的城市，哪怕只是偶尔见见你；但我知道，这是我的奢望，那时候的你一定不会像现在这么黏着我了，也有可能扯着嗓子跟我说：“妈妈，请你给我一些私人空间好吗？”就像现在的我偶尔也会扯着嗓子骂你：“棒棒，你为什么一定要黏着我，家里这么多人，你怎么就黏我，你知不知道你这样妈妈有多累吗？”但后来想想，我好像真的有点过分了，最近总是对你莫名其妙地发火，嗓子喊哑了，你的脸上挂着晶莹的泪珠，我竟然一时想不起为何骂你，我只能抱抱你，跟你说对不起。你瞪着无辜的小眼神跟我说：“妈妈，没关系，我知道刚才一定是你心里的魔鬼控制了你。”我哭笑不得，谢谢你的理解！我们一起努力，好好相处，第一次当你的妈妈，请多多指教......

I even thought:when you go to the college,I will go to your college city,Even just seeing you once in a while.but I know,this is my extravagant hopes.that day you will never attached me like now.may be you will yell at me:mum,please give me some privacy.like now sometimes I shout with you:bangbang,don’t follow me,you can follow everyone in my family,why not just follow me,do you know mum so tired!But then I thought, I really went a little too far,I've been angry with you but there is no reason.I shouted myself hoarse,Tears are glistening on your face,but I can’t remember why I scold you,I just hug with you,say I’m so sorry.you said:mum,It’s all right,I know you must be under control with someone just now.I don’t know laugh or cry,thanks for your understanding!We work hard together,get along well,this is my first time as your mother,please more advice!

                                                                                                          永远爱你的妈妈：子墨

                                                                                                       Mom love you forever zimo

                                                                                                                 2019.03.17