It's been 2023!
I realized there is something I simply can't escape from. I have to take a deep breath and not overthink it. I have to focus on my craft and the things I'm trying to achieve.
Speaking of self-sabotaging - I've been doing it throughout my whole life. Being afraid. Running away. Aiming low. Avoiding competition. When facing someone good, I simply walk out of the competition and find another track or even become a supporting role.
Now I have someone who believes in me and trusts me. I also have a lot of family and friends who believe in me and support me. I have to believe in myself and overcome the fear of failure. I have to seriously try it this time.
The first thing on my mind. People around me start to get jobs from big AAA studios when I haven't landed one internship yet. I've been feeling bad about it. Just now, I realized how dumb I was to be jealous and discouraged - what makes you think you are as good anyways? Accept where you are and feel genuinely happy for them.
I have my own legend to write. Cope with the thing I've been trying to get away from and believe in myself, as my real self.
