A LETTER TO MYSELF IN 2019
It will be 2019 tomorrow, and nothing is more appropriate as a gift to new year than a letter to myself.
I am writing not to mourn for the plans set as the goals for 2018 which I fail to achieve. As for the plans unfinished, I would like to find the reason behind my unable to fulfill them before I find the way to keep them working throughout the new year. What keeps my goals of last year standing still? There may be something to do with the instinct of idleness, hesitation, doubt and ignorance.
I have made a timetable for the two-day holidays yesterday only to find that I haven't done everything mentioned on it. And my unfulfillment of today's schedule is the epitome of my nonperformance of the plans of a year. There are always something more comfortable, pleasant and adorable than the plan at hand, such as a warm bed, an sudden impulsion for online shopping, or the satisfaction of curiosity for what's happening among friends reflected in the WECHAT moments. There are always something getting in the way for those without a firm decision and urgent need to get what's on the plan becoming part of the reality like the bad weather, the terrible mood and the chaotic situation. Every time I want to say not now but later, I want to stop when I see nothing changed after a week's effort, or I haven't got started claiming that the condition is not yet ready for it, I am just killing my plan softly by lingering around.
I know where the point is but I haven't got to the point even if it is a year after the plan was made. It takes something to stand against the idleness I am born with, but unfortunately, I haven't got them within me, or I won't have part of the plans undone last year lag behind, waiting for its reviving in the new year.
I need to be the believer of myself, having faith in me to go against all the ideas putting my plans off, instead of comforting myself that it is ok to skip the task today since lazy thought is quite normal for human being.
I need to detail the goal into practical tasks that I could get started right away instead of knowing nothing to do about the goal abstract and vague.
I need a visualized and measurable way to check the status of accomplishment every time I take a step forward, staying close track of where I am, how I am doing and what I have got from the plan so far.
I need to turn the goal into a thirst, part of the compulsory project in my life, so I have something to drag me out of the bed early in the morning, or shut my intention to check the DOUYIN or PINDUODUO completely down.
Step out of idleness to witness the change I want to see within myself.
I would like to get the following done in 2019.
BE A CONFIDENT DANCER WITH GOOD SHAPE AND SOFT BODY
BE A PHOTOGRAPHER OF STREET SNAP AND THE MODEL OF MY PHOTOS
FIND THE VOICE SUITABLE FOR ME AND MAKE MYSELF SOUND APPEALINGLY BEAUTIFUL
IMPROVE THE SKIN CONDITION AND LOOK 10 YEARS YOUNGER THAN THE ACTUAL AGE
KEEP HIGH QUALITY READING FOR AT LEAST TWO HOURS A DAY
BE GOOD AT ORAL ENGLISH AND WRITTEN ENGLISH LIKE A NATIVE SPEAKER
