2020年2月6日 晴
休息日阳光也很好的一天，美好的不知道后面会在忙碌快一天后，竟然遇到让我失声痛哭并全面停止手机和外界交流。一个人坐在一直以来偷懒等孩子结束舞蹈课的酒吧压低帽檐假寐小憩并默默流泪。
早晨孩子预约了早晨10:30试工和面试，也是算她承诺的照顾好自己的言到实践的行。我也是送她到地点后，打鸡血似的乱窜一番先，接着继续鸡血明里暗里支持。作为顾客买了人做的第一杯珍珠奶茶。后来娃结束后捧着试工的报酬--一杯自己做的珍珠奶茶边喝边瞄一眼我: Mum! Can you calm down a bit! (妈! 你能少安毋躁吗？)
之所以会进入打鸡血的状态，是因为10点后准备出门，一进车里坐下迎着阳光车载音响里就爆炸似的音乐想起
This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She's walking on fire
This girl is on fire
Looks like a girl, but she's a flame
So bright, she can burn your eyes
Better look the other way
You can try but you'll never forget her name
She's on top of the world
Hottest of the hottest girls say
Oh, we got our feet on the ground
And we're burning it down
Oh, got our head in the clouds
And we're not coming down
This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She's walking on fire
This girl is on fire
Everybody stands, as she goes by
Cause they can see the flame that's in her eyes
Watch her when she's lighting up the night
Nobody knows that she's a lonely girl
And it's a lonely world
But she gon' let it burn, baby, burn, baby
This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She's walking on fire
This girl is on fire
Oh, oh, oh,
She's just a girl, and she's on fire
听得本来就有一些亢奋的我有一些打鸡血状态。
无数次想过放弃，无数次自己和别人提醒自己本是个普通人。可是直面残酷血淋淋的现实，不能无动于衷! 而且每次在遇到阻力想放弃时总是如有神助般的人物出现或事情发生，逼着自己去继续走下去! 无法后退! 更不能后退!
接受完人生第一次媒体的电话访谈后，刚有一些欣欣然的成就感，就看到又一位医务工作者逝世的噩耗。送娃去上舞蹈课，娃进去后我停车进入附近的酒吧去喝一杯热巧克力补充体能和平复心情。并在作为上小憩一会儿后跟酒吧工作人员说一声谢谢，然后在夜风中暴走平复自己。等孩子结束舞蹈课，接回家，做晚饭。喝一点儿酒后已昏昏沉沉，倒头就睡，却没想到没睡着。躺着休息的自己，头脑越来越清醒，于是补记了这一篇。
