I have been thinking of keeping diaries for my coming babe, however, more than four months have past and I sitll can't get a clue where to start. Many people say that pregnancy is one of the most beautiful experiences of one's life, well, to be honest, until now, I still can't feel a thing about it.
All my memories about my pregnancy for the first four months are terrible. Except the day I became to know that I got pregnant and felt excited for a few hours, then I started to feel complicated, happy? anxiety? excited? disappointed?……anyway, it seems all the different feelings just rushed to me suddenly, and I was like: perhaps, I'm just not ready for this unexpected surprise …but what can I do? the only thing I can do is trying to accept it and …yes, like other pregnant women do——enjoy it.
However, it is easier said than done. Only few days' excitement, I began to suffer from pregnancy sickness, after that, till now, all my memories about my pregnancy are vomit, like, several times every day……I felt lonely, frustrated, desperat……some tines I was just so sad that I forgot what I am experiencing is a setious sickness but pregnancy. I didn't know how long would this last and where would be my future. I cried and complained all the time, I didn't understand why people think the pregnancy is a wonderful experience and I was wondering what they would keep in their pregnancy diaries because to me, this might be the most dark days I don't want to keep in my memory and don't want it be part of my babe's lifetime. If I don't want let all these dog days to be kept in my babe and my memories, what should I do?
I thought about it for a while and one day, it came to me that, perhaps I can make it up for my babe! Yes! make it up, I don't mean to lie to my babe about the tureth, but I can say something good to her! I can write down nice things I encounter in my pregnancy period for her, and tell her the beauty of the world! Like telling her stories! Then this diary was born.
Momy Elf
2017.09.19
