"Oh, Dirk, I've never since we met asked you to do anything for me."
"You know there's nothing in the world that I wouldn't do for you."
"I beg you not to let Strickland come here. Anyone else you like. Bring a thief, a drunkard, any outcast (流浪汉) off the streets, and I promise you I'll do everything I can for them gladly. But I beseech (乞求) you not to bring Strickland here."
"But why?"
"I'm frightened of him. I don't know why, but there's something in him that terrifies me. He'll do us some great harm. I know it. I feel it. If you bring him here it can only end badly."
"But how unreasonable!"
"No, no. I know I'm right. Something terrible will happen to us."
"Because we do a good action?"
She was panting now, and in her face was a terror which was inexplicable (不能解释的). I do not know what she thought.
I felt that she was possessed by some shapeless dread (恐惧) which robbed her of all self-control.
As a rule she was so calm; her agitation now was amazing. Stroeve looked at her for a while with puzzled consternation (惊愕).
"You are my wife; you are dearer to me than anyone in the world. No one shall come here without your entire consent (同意)."
She closed her eyes for a moment, and I thought she was going to faint.
I was a little impatient with her; I had not suspected that she was so neurotic (神经过敏的) a woman. Then I heard Stroeve's voice again. It seemed to break oddly on the silence.
"Haven't you been in bitter distress once when a helping hand was held out to you? You know how much it means. Couldn't you like to do someone a good turn when you have the chance?"{1}
The words were ordinary enough, and to my mind there was in them something so hortatory (劝告的) that I almost smiled.
I was astonished at the effect they had on Blanche Stroeve. She started a little, and gave her husband a long look.
His eyes were fixed on the ground. I did not know why he seemed embarrassed.
A faint colour came into her cheeks, and then her face became white -- more than white, ghastly (惨白的);
you felt that the blood had shrunk away from the whole surface of her body; and even her hands were pale.
A shiver passed through her. The silence of the studio seemed to gather body, so that it became an almost palpable presence. I was bewildered (迷惑). {2}
"Bring Strickland here, Dirk. I'll do my best for him."
"My precious," he smiled.
He wanted to take her in his arms, but she avoided him.
"Don't be affectionate before strangers, Dirk," she said. "It makes me feel such a fool."
Her manner was quite normal again, and no one could have told that so shortly before she had been shaken by such a great emotion.
Next day we moved Strickland. It needed a good deal of firmness and still more patience to induce him to come, but he was really too ill to offer any effective resistance to Stroeve's entreaties (恳求) and to my determination.
We dressed him, while he feebly cursed us, got him downstairs, into a cab, and eventually to Stroeve's studio. He was so exhausted by the time we arrived that he allowed us to put him to bed without a word.
He was ill for six weeks. At one time it looked as though he could not live more than a few hours, and I am convinced that it was only through the Dutchman's doggedness (坚持不懈) that he pulled through.
I have never known a more difficult patient.
It was not that he was exacting (苛求的) and querulous (抱怨的); on the contrary, he never complained, he asked for nothing, he was perfectly silent;
but he seemed to resent (怨恨) the care that was taken of him; he received all inquiries about his feelings or his needs with a jibe (嘲笑), a sneer, or an oath.
I found him detestable, and as soon as he was out of danger I had no hesitation in telling him so.
"Go to hell," he answered briefly.
Dirk Stroeve, giving up his work entirely, nursed Strickland with tenderness and sympathy.
He was dexterous (灵巧的) to make him comfortable, and he exercised a cunning of which I should never have thought him capable to induce him to take the medicines prescribed by the doctor. {3}
Nothing was too much trouble for him. Though his means (收入) were adequate to the needs of himself and his wife, he certainly had no money to waste;
but now he was wantonly extravagant in the purchase of delicacies, out of season and dear, which might tempt Strickland's capricious appetite. {4}
I shall never forget the tactful patience with which he persuaded him to take nourishment. He was never put out by Strickland's rudeness;
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if it was merely sullen (愠怒的), he appeared not to notice it; if it was aggressive, he only chuckled.
When Strickland, recovering somewhat, was in a good humour and amused himself by laughing at him, he deliberately did absurd (可笑的) things to excite his ridicule.
Then he would give me little happy glances, so that I might notice in how much better form the patient was. Stroeve was sublime.
But it was Blanche who most surprised me. She proved herself not only a capable, but a devoted nurse.
There was nothing in her to remind you that she had so vehemently struggled against her husband's wish to bring Strickland to the studio.
She insisted on doing her share of the offices needful to the sick. She arranged his bed so that it was possible to change the sheet without disturbing him.
She washed him. When I remarked on her competence, she told me with that pleasant little smile of hers that for a while she had worked in a hospital.
She gave no sign that she hated Strickland so desperately. She did not speak to him much, but she was quick to forestall his wants.
For a fortnight it was necessary that someone should stay with him all night, and she took turns at watching with her husband.
I wondered what she thought during the long darkness as she sat by the bedside. Strickland was a weird figure as he lay there, thinner than ever, with his ragged red beard and his eyes staring feverishly into vacancy;
his illness seemed to have made them larger, and they had an unnatural brightness.
"Does he ever talk to you in the night?" I asked her once.
"Never."
"Do you dislike him as much as you did?"
"More, if anything."
She looked at me with her calm gray eyes. Her expression was so placid (平静的), it was hard to believe that she was capable of the violent emotion I had witnessed.
"Has he ever thanked you for what you do for him?"
"No," she smiled.
"He's inhuman."
"He's abominable (令人憎恶的)."
Stroeve was, of course, delighted with her. He could not do enough to show his gratitude for the whole-hearted devotion with which she had accepted the burden he laid on her.
But he was a little puzzled by the behaviour of Blanche and Strickland towards one another.
"Do you know, I've seen them sit there for hours together without saying a word?"
On one occasion, when Strickland was so much better that in a day or two he was to get up, I sat with them in the studio.
Dirk and I were talking. Mrs. Stroeve sewed, and I thought I recognised the shirt she was mending as Strickland's.
He lay on his back; he did not speak. Once I saw that his eyes were fixed on Blanche Stroeve, and there was in them a curious irony.
Feeling their gaze, she raised her own, and for a moment they stared at one another.
I could not quite understand her expression. Her eyes had in them a strange perplexity, and perhaps -- but why? -- alarm.
In a moment Strickland looked away and idly surveyed the ceiling, but she continued to stare at him, and now her look was quite inexplicable.
In a few days Strickland began to get up. He was nothing but skin and bone. His clothes hung upon him like rags on a scarecrow.
With his untidy beard and long hair, his features, always a little larger than life, now emphasised by illness, he had an extraordinary aspect; but it was so odd that it was not quite ugly.
There was something monumental in his ungainliness. I do not know how to express precisely the impression he made upon me.
It was not exactly spirituality that was obvious, though the screen of the flesh seemed almost transparent, because there was in his face an outrageous sensuality;
but, though it sounds nonsense, it seemed as though his sensuality were curiously spiritual.
