For a long long time of losing my faith, maybe it is my indeed shortcoming all the time. It does matter but does not matter what it really was and when amd how this happened.
The only thing I know is I feel tired and not well, as well as my friends, and my future all-life partner maybe.
I am going to solve this, but I know it can not be solved in one day. Rome was not build in one day, a successful man neither.
I have weakness, there is no doubt that is the truth. It influences deeply in my behavior and I truly do not want others discover me, besides my girl friend--I do not want to hurt her even once but I did, it is forgiveless.
The story is going on. I know nothing but I am going to conquer this. It does not matter what I know and do not know.
I may need some help and may not. I noticed by side that I myself turned into a delicate vase, drop in ground and then crashed.
We all meet difficulties, I know my weakness. I am in average not the worst one. Believe in what I believe, and improve my weakness.
To know the world, to take chance.
