I was turned down that day when I asked Peter if I could visit him when the Illinois programe ends. He said no.

I'm very upset. I've been thinking about this for two or three weeks and everyday I imagined things we could do together. But he said no.

Apparently he was scared when hearing me say I would visit him for four or five days.

Ahhhh awkward.

I'm upset. My heart was broken. But I won't tell him.