I'll be graduated for two years by July 10th, however I have never ever thought about my future  or what I wanna be seriously. What's in my mind is always chicken soups such as work harder and u would get a bright future .

However what's the real bright future ? I have no idea.

Everytime I try to make a plan, no matter for how long time it is, I always feel awful and give it up quickly.

Once upon time there was a talk between a friend and me which is a discussion about our own character. In that discussion, she point out that I always try to escape when it come to the future and plan and that's my weakness,because if I continue to do so I would never success. I was not happy at that time but have no word to reply her. It's really a shame.

I had a interview with a manager of a small company this morning ,he also said that I don't looks like a professional person which made me feel embarrassed. However,What's more important is that I finally make up my mind to face my problem and try to figure out what I really want.

Hope that I will finish this job in next few days.

God bless me.