Depression,anxiety,uneasiness,oh god, why I am always nervous.

         One person tells me that sensitive people  is always capable. I confess myself a sensitive people, as for capable, who dare confess it. Sometimes I feel that I am a talented and an excellent person in my heart, but mostly I have no confidence and dare not express my real emotion.Keeping silence can protect me well so that if someone had a deep & interesting chat with me, I would be so excited that I cannot fall asleep at all.

          What do I worry about? Sleep-deprived,also called insomnia, I fear of it，cause of it can speed up the aging.People always fears aging and death.As a female,aging is much more horrible than death.Ageing means you are not beautiful as young girl and less & less attention paid to.

        Can somebody help me out?

        Music about insomnia flowing from earphone, a magnificent tone shows a magic magnetism,like a man.It crushes on you.

         Analysis, there is constant analysis in my mind.There are millions of voices and information, from music,books,TVs,movies or hearings.Like Sherlock's brain,search for the revelant details from the vast memory vault.

        I was always confused why people are content with themselves when I think of everything was disappointed and frustrated. My brian was a mess content like my room, confession of it frankly.But I keep asking why why why. I cannot chang the surroundings,so I have to make a chang of myself. Taking exercise, throwing useless objects,abandoning juggle food,reading and learning knowledge,I find something is different gradually.I have more smile than before.

         Away from the familiar and rigid surroundings relieves my stress.Now I am on the trian to hainan,where there is the family I used to run away from. I used to say my home is not my own home.I seldom feel the love from my home, but endless complaints and quarrels from each other. I was ahamed to mention.I changed my attitude when I realized that even I try many ways to improve myself,it's so difficult to run away from my past world,life &value view,which is connected with my family closely.How do  my parents without much education chang their view for the world.Trace back to their parents，from generation to generation, our destiny are decided not by ourselves,but the history of the family,even the culture of the nation.

       I relieved mysel.I began to accept my family and all my defects,even though I sometimes still feel frustrated.

         There are many noises aroud my ear.A travel team consists of old people. If I was that year, I also would like to travel the world, by alone not the commercial team.  Hopefully I keep fit and energy forever.A conversion bgeins.A traveler from Xinjiang province comes along to hainan,14 days totally,nearly 7 days on the train.Accustomed to the wide and vast desert,transferring to the sunshine,beach and ocean,it's an interesting experience in one's life,especially in the latest years.

         What do I worry about?

         Sky falls down,not the first on your  head.Land sinks down,not the first under your feet. If the wonderful things don't belong to you,please be close to them.Of course,if you can create , it will be the most splendid thing.

          I am not the open-minded one, but I will. It's stupid to spend most time of life to worry. Come on,wake up, what a wonderful world!