i am so sad.my english test total mark is only 89 ,but  my final english writing exam grade is 95.that is to say,my regular grade,which is consisted of times of attending classes and oral english exam grade,lessen my final grade utter 6 grades.though that indicates my spoken english is really poor to some extent,i still indulge in unhappiness and a passing feeling of unfairness.after all,we dont know the metrics of the regular grade,and the judgement is too subjective.

well,what really agonizes me is that my postgraduate recommendation will be affected.i am very clear about the fact that i have to devote time and energy to improving  my oral english immidiately.however,i dont have good ways.