It was in his early ages when he wrote that "People are used to pray. They pray for a better life, and pray the god to give them what they want. However, they become paralyzed by their life, and paralyzed by reality, pursuing what is in their capacity to gain, without an effort to pursue what they are destined to pursue-- the treasure given by the god, and their lives become the habitat of negativity, a careerist who attempts to occupy everyone's mind. But somehow, the boy realized that he is too, becomes the captive of reality, becomes whom he disdained, and becomes who almost lost the precious treasure from the god.

    "When one attempts to gain something, something else must be sacrificed." He has been known about this for quite a while: if he wants to be the spiritual and moral flower in this corrupted world, wealthy and power must be sacrificed; if he wants to protect something instead of being protected, his time for playing must be canceled so that he could train himself to be more powerful enough. He realized, everything is about a choice, and the choice must be subjective so that the world could be balanced.

    He started making choices, choices about his future, and choices of what kind of man he wants to be. But his life is just like a boat. When the storm comes, he didn't resist, but instead, he changed the direction which is going to a different destination, to cater the wind. Then when the captain asked him how about the original orientation, he would try his best to convince himself that this destination is also right and it will take him to the right place where he likes. And when the storm comes again, he makes a choice again, and convinces himself again, and then change the direction again. But there always be a pain when he changes the direction, the pain of pity that he would never gain the benefits from the original destination. The pain that tortures him again and again, until he gets used to it, and at that time, he becomes, unconsciously, a prisoner of reality. But he is even worse, while other prisoners don't realize that they are in the prison, he does, but he still afraid of escaping the prison. He is afraid of being alone if he gets out, and afraid of what is going to happen if he is out.

    He is not and never an idiot, but the only thing he lacks is a little courage, courage that could lead him out of the prison, to pursue what the god asks him to  achieve.

    He once asked his friends and his families, that why should people choose to be tortured in somewhere their family is far away from him, and where he needs to abandon everything in the past to accept a new life? At that time, no one could answer. But apparently, he has found an answer for himself: it is because there are things that he is destined to pursue.

  在他的年少时期，他曾写过这样的话：人们无时无刻的祈愿着，祈愿着更好的生活，祈愿着神明能赐予他们想要的东西。所有人都被生活所麻醉了，他们不停的祈愿着他们无法达到的东西，不停的追寻者在他们能力范围内的东西，却从未努力追寻过神所赐予他们的宝藏。神将这份宝物埋藏在人的内心，当他们能审视自我之时，将会发掘它，这份宝藏不是财富，也不是精神，神只是给了人们一种所谓的“所追寻的东西”。但不是是从何而来的启示，当他发现，他自己也即将成为现实的傀儡，一个被过去的自己鄙视的人，一个即将丢失这份宝物的人。

  “当一个人想要得到什么东西的时候，他必将丢失另一个”，他早已明白了这个道理：如果他想在这浑浊不堪的社会里成为道德与精神的花多，财富与权利必将被牺牲，如果他想要保护他人，而不是在避风港里苟活一生，他必将愉悦玩耍的时间舍弃掉，来训练他自己，让他变得更加强大。他早已明白，所有的东西只是一个选择而已，而选择必是一个主观的东西来维持世界的平衡。

  他开始做出各种各样的选择，关于他未来的选择，也有关于他想成为哪种人的选择。但他的人生就如同帆船一般，在暴风雨来临之际，他并没有选择抵抗并前进，而选择了迎风而行，调转方向，驶向另外一个终点。当船长问他为什么舍弃掉一开始所计划的方向和终点时，他总会全力说服自己，说服自己另一个终点也是对的，也是一个他所认同的地方。当下一场暴风雨来临时，他再一次选择，再一次说服自己，也再一次改变所要行驶的终点。但在改变行程的同时，总会有痛苦伴随着他，一种叫做遗憾的痛苦，他无法得到在最开始确定的那个终点的利益。随着他做出改变航道的选择，这种痛苦就一直伴随着他，直到他习惯这种痛苦，但在这个时候，他已经，虽然自己并不知晓，变成了现实的囚徒。但他却比囚徒更加的应该被憎恨，其他的囚徒们并不知晓自己生活在笼子里，而他，虽然已已经看到了笼子的轮廓，但他却不敢飞出笼子，他畏惧着，畏惧着飞出笼子之后他将孤身一人，他也害怕着在飞出笼子后所要经历的事情。

    他不是一个被现实操控的白痴，他所缺乏的仅仅是一点点勇气，一点点能让他飞出笼子追寻那神所留给他的宝藏的勇气。

      他曾问过其他人，为什么要选择去一个人生地不熟的地方，离开家人，离开一切可以被称为温暖的地方孤身一人去异地？没有人能回答他，但现在，他却为自己找到了答案：因为在他心里有着命中注定要追寻的东西。