Looking back on the past, the willow is Yiyi.
(On January 6, 2024, read the "Thoughts" once written and the sentiment of life course in the past ten years. Because of the concern that there is something wrong with the words, or when touching, or affecting the overall situation. Therefore, it is presented in English. Naturally, keep a copy in your diary folder in case of emergency.)
The birds of prey do not flock, from the past life and of course. This echo echoed for thousands of years, but at this time it is very friendly.
At home on weekends, it seems that there is no special need to complete things, after all, it is no longer the rural child who studied hard at that time. Today, although the life is relatively poor, material is not rich, but now the heart is more full, at least more than before the study. Even if others often say, that can not go back to childhood, is forever miss. In my opinion, even if childhood is good enough, happy enough, but for me, still do not want to go back to continue to live the kind of grandparents are bullied by people
Now, though there is no childhood. That unbridled smile, but at least we know where we are and what we are doing. In a sense, at least, the soul is saved.
This morning, I got up a little earlier than usual on weekends. The same thing has been going on for five or six years, and it will probably continue. After sending my wife to work, I returned home, naturally waiting until the child woke up to play with her, and then waiting for my wife to get off work.
After coming back, I learned English for some time, from English words to English passages reading, only about half an hour. After learning, I happened to think of the situation that I had insisted on learning English. It was on the evening of March 19, 2017, walking between Cherry Blossom Avenue and Shaw Museum, and I learned that there is such a software, so I insist on it.
The past is here, but the man is gone. Looking back at what happened in the past, there are so many happy and sour words. The blurred eyes are not qualified for the scenery of another day.
Helpless and helpless. Looking back at a time when continued for a long time "Capriccio", flipping through the text, always can hook the heart of the past sleep. Seeing the deadline, naturally can also recall the helplessness at that time. Looking at today, has been gone for six years, the end of nothing.
Once upon a time, laughter was so unbridled. Now, the pressure I carry deep inside is so heavy, so heavy that I can not understand the weight of my age.
The old days are gone, and the old plans are gone.
Have remember, ten years ago, the college entrance examination, determine the direction of life. However, the child in the way, actually need money and silk to pave the road, how poor, beyond the money. It is not easy to cultivate the countryside after all the ancestors, and my father bitterly advised. Finally compromise, since is alone to study in the south of Guizhou. Some years, the passage of time, the changes of the world, but eventually dare not forget the shame and humble past.
Time has passed and history has returned. Last August, there were supposed to be changes, but one man's personal interests blocked my way. Read away, thousands of miles of smoke. The hoary head is exhausted, but everything is empty. I don't know if what happened to the man who stood in my way ten years ago will happen again to this ungodly, legal, moral man.
For a moment, the meditation has been given up, but finally because of the deep heart of the unwilling and helpless. Life is not easy, looking back on the past, are a joke. Now, not to step from the beginning, just want to precipitate themselves, one day, jump out of this filthy environment.
I am not a sage, but a scholar, from the countryside, once upon a time, also ambitious to stay young in rural education. However, when he devoted himself to education for only two years, he almost died on this mountain.
Listen to the wind, watch the rain. I am not a hard man, nor am I a noble man, how can I speak of the sage? Survival, perhaps, has become an unavoidable priority today.
