Life is actually not that scary and complex. I fight for what I want and enjoy this whole process including both the sweet and bitter moments.
Having orientated myself as a passer-by, I begin to merely focus on being myself, rather than confusing myself with plenty of trifles. So even on the Lunar New Year's Eve, it was OK for me to be left out although it really suffered. I asked myself repetitively, "Why did I choose to come here? Why am I supposed to endure all these tortures? Why do I have to kiss others' asses when I'm even not being respected?" After a long silence, I got an answer from myself, "Because it's part of what it takes to achieve success. And the pain needs to be felt."
Another thing worth to mention is that I really feel very touched that Michael specially cooked yummy dumplings for us guys. He's a good boss who knows how to get the most of every employee's advantages and make them happy at the same time. Although he just said, "It's a must to eat dumplings on the New Year's Eve", I was almost moved to tears. And I muss confess that I'm a most superficial person and I could be so content as long as my stomach gets satisfied. So why not embrace this world with love and gratitude?
Over time we'll get more mature and the more experience we have, the more resilient and tolerant we'll become. This is not cowardliness but calmness. Thanks to those who look down upon me as they offer me a continuous motivation to keep me on track and not lose myself. I'm using my action and even better performance to prove myself and capability. And it's better to bear others' kindness towards me in my heart which supports me to march forward bravely.
