又是一年离乡时

Here I am,trying to write something related to my feelings about leaving my hometown again and going back to campus.It’s complicated to say.
On one hand,I am happy because a new semester means a new beginning,during which I can be of confidence and work hard for my future.It also means that I am nearer to my dream.
On the other hand,I am heartbroken because in some way I am going to be all alone.Back in my hometown,I’ve got my family,my friends whom I’ve been known for ages,my baby doggies.I’ve been there for at least eighteen years,thus,I know exactly how things work there.I actually went to see Titanic with my parents in 1997 when my mother was pregnant with me.Anyway,I was just trying to stress that I know this place so well.

Seven

But what happens now is that I need to leave all these behind and go to a place which I am not familiar with though it is so much better than my hometown.I know no matter what happens,my family and friends will get my back even though I am faraway,however,it’s just so hard when you know that they are with you but they’re not actually there.I feel lost and lonely in this big busy city in which everybody keeps hurrying for their lives.I am just a small individual that no one stops for.This competitive society freaks me out.
I may Skype with my parents and my friends,but my baby girls,Mango and Seven,they can’t recognize me on the screen.It breaks my heart every time I start a video chat with my parents.They can hear my voice and they try to find where I am,but in vain.They don’t know how a video chat works.I want to be there for my doggies.They’re kind of like my babies,so it’s not hard to explain why I find heartbroken when I leave them.I am afraid,so afraid that if I am absent for such a long time,my doggies will forget me.They may forget the happy times we spent together.I know dogs can’t actually forget,but it still hurts when I think of this.I don’t want them to feel like being abandoned by me.I can’t bear the pain of being without them being around my side.Dogs don’t judge,they love you unconditionally and make you happy.Mango and Seven are my best friends,they are aware of all my secrets.They are my baby girls.

Mango

When children grow up,they leave their parents.It’s natural.But maybe it’s still hard for me to accept this.I am worried about my parents,my grandparents,etc.I hope they’ll be happy and healthy when I am away.I hate it when thinking that I may not be there on many special occasions.

I will leave for Nanjing on 2017.2.26.I can’t go back home in 130 days or so.I will miss everything and everyone I love back in Baoding because you made who I am.