As you grow up, you discover that people around you wear a fake mask. You don’t know how to trust, how to behave or act.

These days, some angry thoughts appear in my head. I can’t stop to think how bad the Ex. have done to me. He ignored my thoughts, forget my birthday, regardless my tears. and always laugh at my look or my weakness. He often try to persuade that if I don’t agree with that I won’t be influenced. But how can I not be influenced.He is the man I loved, I care about his mood and his feelings far more than mine sometimes. I lost my confidence, maybe not all come from him.Although from other aspects.

I know I shouldn’t complain anymore cause it is me decide to break the relationship between us. I shouldn’t blame him anymore, I shouldn’t and I don’t have the right to do that. One more thing make me crazy is that he is planning to make a fresh start with an another girl. He treat me like I’m a mood rubbish box. Every time he has a bad mood, I was here for him. But When I suffer some bad feelings, he just said we are not together anymore, you should solve all of the disgusting staff by yourself. I know that’s true. But it’s too cold for a person who help you, isn’t it? You left the girl tear the whole night just because it is good to you? Maybe it’s only good to “you”. I can’t stop thinking what you said and what you have done, I felt to be betrayed and to be played. I have to admit in the love game, you are the winner.

I am impolite to disturb to you last night just because my birthday, my intention to do that is hoping there is you can talk to me for a while. I shouldn’t have that kind of expect. You stayed with who , wanted to do what is not about my business. I should realize it advance so that I wouldn’t let me so embarrassed. I hate you , hate you to the bone.

I guess I lose too much in the relationship, I change to a person I don’t like. Maybe not only because of you, but also caused by myself.