I wrote one article about my always being sleepy last night and I determined to change. But when I lied in bed, I took up my phone and scrolled the screen to entertain myself. How ridiculous I was and how terrible the power of habits is. I just swore to change a few minutes ago but once I began the old routine, bringing the phone to bed, I would get trapped into the old habits, grabbed and played the phone unconsciously. The same thing happened this morning. I woke up at around 6:00, the first thing I did was to search the phone and then I played it about 15 minutes. I blamed myself again and again while playing the phone but I forgave myself again and again. One more minute won’t hurt. I always use this sentence to excuse myself but once I put down the phone, I found I’d forgave myself over 20 times and 30 minutes had passed. I hate myself.
I once read the Power of Habit and I’m very clear how to get out of this mess.I have to change my routine firstly.
Before I go to bed, leave the phone far away from the bed. When my mind is not so strong to control my behavior, I have to put away what could distract my attentions out of my view and out of my arm’s reach. I doubt about my determination so I have to disorganize my old arrangement to force myself to change my behaviors first and when I get positive feedback, my mind will change and I’ll be wiling to change actively. Day by day, I could get into a virtuous circle. It’s hard and painful to change but once I begin to get on the track, it’ll become easier for me.
The real enemy is my mind. It’s too hard to fight against it straightly. The proper way for me is to force myself to change my behaviors and then use positive feedback to influence my mind and finally, use my mind to influence my behaviors.
