why is it so hard to forget you，a year of tears is not enough？

Ghost know what i experienced？

the all harmful is due to myself,cannot blame others

my thought is lost again,i was missing you again, and,you let me know i am nothing actually

i think i just want to use all the energy in myself and nobody could defeat me and influence me.you let me know i am nothing and tomorrow i will be good in the reality life

yes，i am depressed ，sad ，pessimistic，complain，because i am dissatisfied myself now ，i will be better，i want to go to the gymnasium.