It's just a another normal day, still staring at the cellphone in a daze. This emotion is much harder than my imagination. It's not easy to describe the feeling of the belonging , the safety and the satisfaction. The memory is the best, the reality is the opposite. I know I've change much, it's not easy to only missing. My mind is always confused. Maybe I can be better without being sticky, maybe I can be more happy without think too much. But it's not my decision I'm afraid. I really hate seeing others hugging right now in any place. Sometimes I exclaim the fate, sometimes I hate the fate. I know it won't be us if the situation changes and there's no end for that. What I can do is always trying to empty myself badly and express my bad feelings I guess lol...