Jul.29th, it's one day before my birthday. It is a raining Saturday.
I met a friend, we had delicious lunch and coffee. Last year, we celebrated my birthday one week ahead. This year, we celebrate birthday one day ahead. I like Hangzhou food and was surprised by colorful mixture of beans and beef. It's innovative that put beans and beef together to make more than 3 kinds of colors. We also enjoyed rice drinking. It is sweet with very less alcohol inside. I first time had rice drink when I joined an event in Japan. I acted as foreigner volunteer to give guild to tourist. Because of my hard working, I was treated a cup of rice drinking freely. We went to Starbucks finally and both sat near to window, so we can have a quiet space to drinking coffee and talk friendly.
It was a very peaceful and honest talk for me. Most times, I was afraid of opening my mind. Honestly, it is very hard for both us. Balance is really challenging. We may know mind-set of each other, sometimes, we may even feel very clearly, however, it is not allowed to speak into words. I often feel suffering when I think about it. Therefore, I choose to pretend that I don't care. The honest person is myself. Indeed, I feel much sad and lonely. One of my most like dramas is 起风了。I like watching sky and wish myself is a free bird. Things always have opposite sides, one side is happy, one side is sad. I want to be happy for sure, however, things will go to another way if we stick to being happy. Suddenly, it becomes a philosophy topic.. I don't have answers at current page.
I used to think about life. I have opportunities to meet patients during my job. I often feel crying when I see the blood of patients. The blood is very pale, looks very disappointing. I will get much courage and wish could live the moment.
It's a great thing to meet each other and be good friend.
To current, we are so proud of both handling well.
To future, should be expected, about situations and solutions.
