昨天跑完步真是太累了...大概早上10点才起来...
来的路上，我脑袋里其实就一直在想，我们现在的关系，到底算什么呢？
其实，我对于我的想法考虑的很清楚....如果你还真的真的想和我继续走下去，只要你一句话，我就可以很乖地在变成你心爱的那个小哥哥...
如果你不想和我继续走下去了，想分开了，那么好...我会决绝地再也不去找你，甚至是删掉你所有的联系方式，任它在想念，在孤单，也绝不回头..
如果你真的只是想一直做朋友的话，好吧这对于我应该算是最难的选择了...大概以后每次和你聊天就只能凭借理性去说话了吧，不能靠的太近，也不能离的太远
靠的太近会偷偷想念，
离的太远会慢慢失去联系..
然而关键是，
我不知道你到底是怎么想的...
更关键的是，
我觉得甚至你自己也不知道你自己怎么想的...
最最关键的是,
即便你现在真的真的想清楚了，我不知道，我还可不可以相信你了...
我害怕再失望了 ...
我害怕你再反悔了...
大二的我，可以躲在角落里哭，可以喝酒通宵，可以昏天黑地，然后决定和她老死不相往来，然后重新开始，像没受过伤一样；
而现在，我失眠了，我绝望了，第二天还是要继续工作，笑着和别人相处，还要生活，我知道，越往后，我越没有机会，再去迎接失望了...
何况，这是我在乎的人让我感到的失望...
何况，这是关于本来可以相信一生的东西的失望...
我不想再分手了....不想再对一个，对未来没有信心的人，去耗尽我所有的精力了...我累了..我真的累了....
我胆怯了，我害怕了...喜欢一个人的成本太高了...何况，还是毫无保留地把自己所有的一切都交到另一个人手上..
然后却要患得患失的忍受所有失去的风险...还不一定有回报...
两个人在一起很简单，相互喜欢就好，
但是分开，要耗费多少精力呢？...
花了大把的时间和精力去了解习惯一个人
最后却还是要分开，
真的很累...我好不容易从上一段感情活过来，
不想再送死了...
有人说，爱情是属于那些即使灰心失望，却仍继续期待的人...是属于那些被欺骗出卖，却仍坚信美好的人；是属于那些纵然伤痕累列，却仍然渴求爱的人；
我还是会继续期待啊...
只是，我还能相信些什么呢？....
我不想再分手了...
我不用你有多完美，我只希望我们能永远不分开..
附上最近特别喜欢的一个歌手的一首最喜欢的翻唱：
Sam Tsui:
I've been reading books of old
The legends and the myths
Achilles and his gold
Hercules and his gifts
Spiderman's control
And Batman with his fists
And clearly I don't see myself upon that list
But she said, where'd you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I'm not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts
Some superhero
Some fairytale bliss
Just something I can turn to
Somebody I can kiss
I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Oh, I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Oh, I want something just like this
I want something just like this
I've been reading books of old
The legends and the myths
The testaments they told
The moon and its eclipse
And Superman unrolls
A suit before he lifts
But I'm not the kind of person that it fits
She said, where'd you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I'm not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts
Some superhero
Some fairytale bliss
Just something I can turn to
Somebody I can miss
I want something just like this
I want something just like this
I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Oh, I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Where'd you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I'm not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts
Some superhero
Some fairytale bliss
Just something I can turn to
Somebody I can kiss
I want something just like this
Oh, I want something just like this
Oh, I want something just like this
Oh, I want something just like this
