读了这本书的第一章节，感觉有点不可思议，竟然是讲同性恋的。很少读这类的书，潜意识里也很难接受这样的事情，Eliot近乎变态的暗恋Oliver，更让我难以想象。如果说Eliot是个女人，我觉得这一切都合情合理，而且觉得他的内心描述很逼真，写出了每一个曾经有过暗恋经历的人的一切。每天都在焦急的等待着他的出现，观察他，梦见他竟然悄悄的跑到他的卧室偷偷穿他的泳衣，亲吻他的泳衣，床被。
I brought the bathing suit to my face, then rubbed my face inside of it, as if i were trying to snuggle into it and lose myself into its folds.
I keep repeating to myself .looking inside the suit for something for personal than this smell and then kissing every corner of it ,almost wish to find hair ,anything to lick, to put the whole suit to my mouth.
