To be honest, I got regretful the minute I bought the WO ticket. "Why're you doing this to yourself". The voice repeated to me. It's so stressful to get yourself doing something you're not actually good at. It's unnecessary for me to drag myself onto this journey…
Yes, you can always find yourself all the excuses; You can get the burden off your shoulder and enjoy the comfort and leisure in this minute; You can always choose an easy road to go. If this is the case, you will lose the chance to push the boudary of yourself. Of course I lack the confidence in my English writing, and this is my first article after graduating from the school. But let's think in this way - except for the CNY199, will I lose anything else?
It's never easy to boost any skill or master any activity. So what's my plan to get better at this thing that I care about?
First, I need to conquer my fear about writing in English.
Back to the period of "QQ zone", my writing in Chinese is awful as well. It's so horrible that I wanna erase the memory from my friends' head. But so what? It became a baseline now that I know how much I've got improved and how far I've walked ahead.
Second, it will force me pay more attention to the expression in my reading.
With the encouragement from Li XiaoLai, I've read several original books in the past 2 years. But it's really frustrated that you can understand what the authors are talking about, but when you're trying to retell it in your own words, it became so hard.
Now step by step, let me try to clear my mind and type them down first. If I can't make it clear literally, of course I can't retell them orally.
Third,always keep myself in the learning zone.
For most people, although they've spent so much time doing one same thing, they didn't get much progress. The reason is that they're doing it in the performance zone instead of the learning zone.
Both the performance zone and learning zone are useful, but they'll play different roles in our daily life.
In the performance zone, you're trying to show your best and avoid making any mistakes.
While in the learning zone, you're trying to move beyond your comfort zone and expecting the mistakes so as to improve yourself.
For instance, when Beyonce giving her concert on the stage, she's in her performance zone. But when she got back to the hotel, watched the videos and picked flaws with her team, she switched to her learning zone.
I'm coming here to get my English writing better, so the deliberate practice is needed and I'll try to keep myself in the learning zone on the journey.
Frankly, I still get regretful sometimes especially when I'm trying to write my first composition. It's not easy. But I also feel so grateful when I finally finished it. I expect to meet the unknown me, who will be more confident and has much more stories to tell during this journey.
