Since childhood i have been timid and so am i now.I had always attributed it to my father,who is a reserved man with few words.I inherited his dispositions.But after reading this book,i found it was not really like that.It was all because of my insecurity and my fear.During my student period,i seldom undertook any tasks from my teachers for fear of screwing them up,now i begin my work ,it also tortures me to take responsibility voluntarily due to my doubt of my ability.I thought they are all beyond my capability.I never dare to try.I let the imaginary results freak me out.
To explore the underlie reasons, it all comes to my fear. Fear of failure,fear of being criticized or being a laughingstock,fear of losing face or defying expections of my fellow workers make me what i am now.Neither did i gain any achievements(even a small one)nor did i make some remarkable self-improvement.I refused to try and to fail so success refused me.Things turned out that i was really that important as i thought in other people's hearts.It does't matter so much . When i amazed at how other people acted so well in the job ,i murmured to myself may be next time i could have a try.But when it is next time ,i put it off to next time.Actually,there is no real next time.Being mediocre to some point is being a loser in my heart.Because no one want to live a life without any recognition.Sometimes i really despise myself's inaction to fulfill some assigments.
Now, i learn to ask myself as the author did in the book"What will i lose if i do it?"or"what will i gain if i don't do it?"
I should make it clear that there is no fear of "what" but only "how to do something"!
New year,wish less fear,less undone and more done.
