The prefix 're' here represents 'recording' as opposed to 'remember' for the label Re-Dream. The whole section was created as an experiment testing on how writing might have an influence over my depression condition, or at least this is what it seems to be.

Somewhere hidden in my brain, I wanted to try and see if I can follow up with blog posting. I have always had difficulties with continuity and persistence, I would get bored so quickly and easily that there is absolutely no time to form a habit out of whatever I was doing. I was often criticised for that, and the need to change never really crossed my mind.

I did have the habit to write occasionally. Once being a student of history and politics, I was very used to write essays. As a child, I was used to writing diaries.

However, all of the above died out mysteriously through time, until recently I had the impulse to write down my dreams in order to remember them. I have also came across an article written by a therapist who encouraged her patients to write in order to cope with their psychological situations. There, I thought, I should give that a try. If not successful, I would at least have somewhere to store all my bizarre dreams and racing thoughts.

But I had absolutely no intention in publishing them. Not even to show them to anyone but myself.

I am fully aware that these writings are structure-less, and probably very difficult for anyone to follow including myself, as I am only putting what is on my mind on this very second on paper. That is why I call my writing, the Pensieve, just a safe place to store whatever I have on my mind. Writing my thoughts down is a way to calm my racing and turning brain, and get all the brain cells some resting time, so they would not be busy dealing with all the information. It is also a way to reassure myself saying, look, here they are, safe and sound, no need to worry about their survival through time.

When I eventually decided to post my writings, I was determined to make it into a new habit. Writing posts opened to the public (though I doubt if anyone is ever going to read this...) would, I hope, impose myself to write regularly. To this end, let us hope that I shall always write on, as long as I live on.