The title just came in a few minutes ago. Sitting in a restaurant, I marvel at all the great provision all this time. You know, there were so many times when I tried to shop or order, price was the first thing that mattered. Sometimes I feel bad but mostly I feel grateful because my contentment and happiness do not necessarily come from material fulfillment. Even till now, right at this moment, I still remember one of the happiest moments in my life that I was smiling alone so joyfully while I just had 2 RMB in my pocket and that's all the money I got. Yet, because I knew who was with me and where my joy came from. I was so grateful that still I lack of nothing.
Isn't it great to choose something you also like with a lower price and enjoy more?!
Yet, am not those amazing people that keep the joyful situation going all the time. Even I might pretend that I am all ok in front of others. So many times in my life I worried things out of nothing even I knew what the Bible says about NOT worrying about tomorrow and NOT be anxious about anything AND I have actually experienced quite many great blessings even miracles in the past. The good thing is that someone is always there and I could just be real in front of Him.
Through all those ups and downs, all I can boast about is NOT my faith, prayers or anything else but all the grace from ABOVE! Guess am getting to understand a little bit more about what Paul talked about boasting abt our weakness.
Anyways, all things shall work together for the greater good!
Right now, am really nervous about something but also excited cuz I do not how what to respond if that really happens because that MUST be a miracle! Aren't we blessed to know the one who makes the impossible possible!?
A few days ago when I wrote" Sinner like me, now a princess", I realized that I haven't fully understand how precious my life as well as everyone's lives must be. And when it comes to reality, still it's a big challenge for me to accept myself as His one and only. Do I deserve this and that especially when there are more needy people? Brah brah brah...
However, when I heard a bit more about a dear friend today and felt how deeply he is loved and protected, I think it helps to get rid of self-center.
As for our own lives, just remember, WORRY is SILLY! Btw, this is what helped me through the hard times and is still helping till now. Yay!!
This is a photo taken in 2011. GZ.
A step to experience His love way before I had a clue. So, be grateful for where you have been and where you are going!
Nothing happen for nothing.
Love,
Anya
2016.08.03
