文/笔若
ByBiRuo
因为疾病，因为身份
Because of illness, because of identity
因为我是一只远行的鸽子
Because I'm a dove on a long journey
鸽子的故事很凶残——
The story of the pigeon is cruel
——永恒而悲哀
- eternal and sad
我的生命和心脏正在枯萎
My life and heart are dying
你馈赠的幸福和悲痛
Your happiness and sorrow
如同北方工人的手电筒
Like a northern worker's flashlight
照在整个院子里的石板上
On the flagstones throughout the yard
这石板是白色的…
The SLATE is white...
和我全部的骨头一样雪白
As white as all my bones
或许你就是一张木床，石床
Maybe you are a wooden bed, a stone bed
我想我必须睡在这张床上
I think I must sleep in this bed
这里的幸福仅属于床的幸福
The happiness here belongs only to the happiness of the bed
痛苦仅属于鸽子的痛苦
The pain belongs only to the pigeon
我背负的和所丢掉的
What I carry and what I throw away
才是真正的财富，我的膝盖
Is the real treasure, my knee
重新嵌进这个世界里去
To be rewoven into the world
我不再做你的才华的儿子
I am no longer your talented son
鸽子飞过我写诗的地方
The dove flew over where I wrote my poem
哪里就是一片肥沃的土地
Where is a fertile land
我可以看见一滴洁白的水
I can see a drop of white water
和一株充满历史和情感的植物
And a plant full of history and emotion
正在被人类善良的种下，是谁？
Being planted by human kindness, who is it?
是谁收割以后长久的寂寞和安宁？
Who is long lonely and quiet after harvesting?
原本可以感受极尽的自由和幸福
Could have felt the utmost freedom and happiness
因为我是一颗野太阳
Because I am a wild sun
无法照亮你鄙夷的道路
Cannot light your path of contempt
和这院子里的全部凶残的石板
And all the flagstones of the yard
2018年9月4日
September 4, 2018
注释：该诗歌笔若2018年9月4日创作于贵州省毕节市大方县人民医院传染病区住院部，此时的笔若是独自一人在医院里输液，想起父亲说的话，便由此创造出该首歌《父亲就是一张床》。
Note: if the poem pen was written on September 4, 2018 in the infectious disease department of dafang county people's hospital, bijie city, guizhou province, when the pen was given liquid in the hospital alone and remembered the words of his father, the song "father is a bed" was created.
