即大家期待已久的《以你的名字呼唤我》的同名原著。
文学少年Elio苦甜交织的短暂夏季恋情——海边的猛烈阳光、新鲜杏汁、午后小憩(有一只受伤的桃子)、红色泳裤、名叫“天堂”的泳池边专属躺位……不过和一切未挑明的感情一样,未得到明确回应之前,当事人的内心戏够填满一个太平洋。
他捏了一把他的肩膀:“It never occured to me that what had totally panicked me when he touched me was exactly what startles virgins on being touched for the first time by the person they desire: he stirs nerves in them they never knew existed and that produce far, far more disturbing pleasures than they are used to on their own.”
他带他去看莫奈作画的地点:“It never occured to me that I had brought him here not just to show him my little world, but to ask my little world to let him in...”
“It never occured to me”这样频繁地出现,大概因为单恋的少年比较容易睁眼瞎。
这其实是个没什么情节的故事,与其说主人公是Elio和Oliver,倒不如说更像是Elio对这场“觉醒式”恋爱的单方面记录——关于性的尝试,犹太人身份的一点点思考,关于诗、音乐,关于一切青少年在暑假里会想到的东西。因为现实生活还悬在地平线以外,if not later, when?
然后二十年过去了。
“Over the years I'd lodged him to the permanent past, my pluperfect lover, put him on ice, stuffed him with memories and mothballs like a hunted ornament confabulating with the ghost of all my evenings. I'd dust him off from time to time and then put him back on the mantelpiece. He no longer belonged to earth or life.”
Oops,好像剧透了。